Sorry folks, things aren't exactly easing. I hate to be writing a never ending tale of woe but I've got to vent somehow. Please, do not feel obliged to read on, and certainly don't feel that you must reply in the comments.
So, here we go. I have the dates for hospital visits, ops and treatments, which is good, provided they are not cancelled. (So far only once. You expect that with the NHS in its current state.) And all within the month as the consultant promised. In a month's time I will be better, limping along metaphorically speaking, or out of it entirely. One way or another. My son is taking compassionate leave for he first few days afterwards and I have a carer who has promised to take up the slack when he leaves.
So far so good.
Now comes a non medical problem. Last September I changed mobile service provider. Long after my contract with them had ended I changed from Vodafone to my current provider; I was certain I followed the normal procedure, bar using the PAC code, preferring to take up a new mobile number supplied by the new provider. Vodafone decided, some time later, that I owed them monthly payments and plucked a figure out of thin air. Less than a month later they had handed my "debt" over to a debt collector. I wrote to Vodafone informing them of the state of affairs and heard nothing. I wrote to the debt collector "Ardent Credit Services", who first increased the amount of debt and then emailed me to say that they were "looking into it". I was then handed over to a second debt collector, they call themselves "The Zinc Group". They now regularly ring my landline with a computerised message inviting me to ring a mobile number. I have so far declined. I googled "The Zinc Group", they exist and are indeed debt collectors with a registered office, but no address. Lots of people have left reviews online on their activities as well as Vodafone's unjust persecutions of customers and non-customers. I tried writing another letter to both, inviting them to explain; still no reply.
A Consumer Champion might help but I simply don't have the energy physically or mentally to enter into a dispute. In the meantime they keep harassing me.
Some time ago I wrote a post here about night terrors. "Sleep terrors are times of screaming or crying, intense fear and sometimes waving arms and legs when not fully awake."
The terrors seem to have reverted to nightmares, because I actually dream very violent dreams. Earlier this week I woke up, on the floor, screaming, having drawn blood in three places, with deep bruising on the back of my left hand, my upper arm, and my forehead. The knee which was healing nicely is damaged again!
Do not laugh, it really wasn't very funny!
My doctor thinks it is partly to do with the new cancer; I am not so sure about that, I have had serious nightmares for several years and have been violent before. Remember the lamps I have damaged by throwing them across the bedroom floor? What kind of mental health specialist deals with sleep abnormalities? Psychiatrist? Analyst? Counsellor? My doctor thinks there is a need for going deep into my subconscious to dig up the reasons for my disturbed nights. Get this blasted cancer out of the way and I will explore.
However, please do not use the stock phrase "And How Did That Make You Feel?" I might actually turn violent while I'm awake.